Anxiously Attached To My Vision

If you hold onto a vision too tight, it starts to lose life.

Trust and spaciousness, are fundamental to being securely attached to your vision - 

…and, full honesty? I’ve been anxiously attached to mine. 

The vision I have for our family is grand, it’s beautiful (and when the time is right, I’ll be sharing it more publicly).

As my husband has lovingly pointed out for me on a few occasions, I want it too bad.

It’s what makes me so f*****g powerful - and so vulnerable to disappointment, too.

When I want something, I can summon the powers of the Universe to support me. I have no shame in that. It’s one of my ultimate superpowers.

….but

There are times when I feel my ego come into play. Holding on so tight, the vision starts to feel more like my prison.

I get triggered when it seems like something may threaten it.

I “check” on it often.

My words are drenched in fear.

I look for all possible signs of threat that my vision just won’t be.

And when I do this, I feel myself spiral into a familiar pattern of being anxiously attached.

No more so with my partner; it has shape shifted in some ways.

That’s the thing about attachment styles; they aren’t exclusive to our relationships.

They can creep up in the most unsuspecting places, as I’ve recently discovered for myself.

So I’m curious, what are you holding onto just a little too tight?

A person?

A vision?

A point of view?

And what might live in the open spaces, if you allow it?

With love,

Diana